So Singularity GSP has the lowest admission rate of any other school. There were many thousand direct applicants and they admitted 40 of us. I must have done something right. Yet, surrounded by my incredibly smart and accomplished classmates…. I feel like a fraud.
Impostor syndrome is a psychological phenomenon in which people are unable to internalize their accomplishments. Despite external evidence of their competence, those with the syndrome remain convinced that they are frauds and do not deserve the success they have achieved. Proof of success is dismissed as luck, timing, or as a result of deceiving others into thinking they are more intelligent and competent than they believe themselves to be. Notably, impostor syndrome is particularly common among high-achieving women.
Even knowing that the imposter syndrome is a thing – even having it be mentioned from several of the faculty members of SU during our first few days – I still feel it. It hit me hard today!
For me, the hardest part is actually the simple question “so what do you do?”. Because to be quite frank, I have no idea. In the regular world I can say that I’m an entrepreneur, but in here everyone is AND they have a degree in some advanced technology and have received a handful awards and they’re all several years younger than me and they’ve already worked with half of the SU staff… and of course I know that this is not true. Not at all. But I still feel like a fraud, and when I get the question “So what do you do?” I tense up and give either a weird half-assed answer or I tell the truth: I don’t know. Though that rarely leads to exciting further conversations.
Someone said about me that “oh, she’s so humble”. But trust me, that’s not what it is. Not at all. I am not being humble right now, I just really feel like I don’t have anything to bring to the table.
With this said though, I am enjoying every single second of this adventure! The people here are amazing and inspiring and I know I am in for one hell of a ride. Sure, I might feel like a complete fraud but, hey, someone let me in here and I might as well enjoy it and learn everything I possibly can!